In the effort to make this blog successful I got a lot of advice from people, especially people who do this kind of thing like full time. And less than full time. Many are experts in their areas of digital marketing. But all this advice, which is very good for someone who has something more business-y in mind, is actually making it hard to express on here the way I really want to. All these plug-ins grading my SEO and making me feel like expressing myself authentically will result in my blog not being seen – I think that’s really getting in the way of what I wanted for this site. I don’t think I can narrow down that vision into, like, a focus key phrase or whatever, that doesn’t feel authentically me. You know?
What I really wanted was a place to info dump about my special interests somewhere that isn’t social media but is something I made myself. More or less. I’m definitely using wordpress plug-ins and templates anywhere it makes sense. I wanted to get to the expressive part faster than when I was younger building sites in raw HTML, CSS, Javascript etc. The things that let you cut corners in the 2000s kinda ended up looking like shit. But now it’s better, but now I’m bombarded by all this SEO stuff and how to make your site do this and that etc…. and I feel my existing activities as a creator and fumbling my way around the whole thing but somehow still ending up in influencer programs puts a lot of pressure on you to want to show these brands that you’re not actually a deadline-missing loser, you are brand friendly and your viewers trust you. But like idk man that really makes it all way less fun and interesting than I wanted out of this.
I think I’m gonna start by putting some of my gluten free recipes up on that part of the site, but I don’t want to pigeonhole this place as a cooking blog. I get a lot of requests for beauty reviews and tutorials because a lot of people can’t tell by looking at me but my little goofy childish ass is forty, yes, 40 years old, and I’m gonna be honest I don’t look young because of skincare and makeup that is Ehlers Danlos Syndrome and a bit of autistic lack of affect unless I’m tending to it for social reasons (and as you may know I’m a cave-dwelling proto-egirl and streamer so that’s not as often as you’d think) but I do also stay mad up to date on makeup trends and I do love me some good skincare. I think I have some good tips for staying on a budget and taking care of very sensitive skin. But again I do not want to be a like, beauty influencer either, I would like to do a bit of whatever I enjoy and I don’t want to have to compromise the authenticity because I need to adhere to certain parameters for SEO reasons. I just wanna say my thing and I wanna answer questions and I want to enjoy things the way I used to. I used to love having my little websites. Not ones that were like intentionally paywalled sales sites or whatever. The ones before all that. The ones where I was just enjoying myself and learning and sharing it with the world.
I feel like there’s a moral somewhere, or maybe a reflection of a larger truth about current reality. And I mean, what do you value? I think I value authenticity and being myself.
I think coming up I’m gonna start up some “what am I listening to right now” posts or something idk. A series. Infodumping about whatever I’m playing lately. I wanna stream South of Midnight on Twitch soon. I’ve been playing Palworld again a lot. Fallout 76 has been crashing for me lately and I just got a month of 1st to use my scrapbox. Oops. I’m trying to start me a little garden, we’ll see how that goes though.
I dunno man. And the south has way too many large bugs. 🙁 And I have cramps. And like the economy.
